Update: Well,..<sigh> things aren't working out between Susie and I and I'm tired of changing every area of my life to simply 'co-exist.' She (obviously) has a difficult time trusting me (or anyone for that matter.) I realized today though that I changed a LOT of my views/perceptions and sacrificed a lot for her, but in return I didn't really see that much. Maybe some time apart is best now...for both of us. I feel liberated <no, I didn't burn her bras or anything> XD and I think that things are going to be ok...instead of obsessing over it, I feel at peace, so I guess it was 'right.' Anyway, just thought I'd give you guys/gals an update cause I don't want to misrepresent.