[Doctor]

I can't say specifically, exactly, what you SHOULD do.

Just do what your heart tells you, no matter how much it may hurt. Sometimes, there is really no logical answer when it comes to situations like this. Separate the logic from your feelings, even though it may seem irrational. And if it sounds too crazy for you to handle, just go with the flow of things. See where the events take you. See where the people important to you right now take you.